shah

demolition lovers...

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 04:45:02 GMT

Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and

I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running

But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

Until the end, until this pool of blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of...

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

But this time, we'll show them
We'll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every...

All we are, all we are
Is bullets I mean this

As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms
Forever, forever
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning
Forever & ever
Know how much I want to show you you're the only one
Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun

And as we're falling down, and in this pool of blood
And as we're touching hands, and as we're falling down
And in this pool of blood, and as we're falling down
I'll see your eyes, and in this pool of blood
I'll meet your eyes, I mean this forever

i am vindicated, i am selfish, i am wrong...

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 05:45:07 GMT

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of which has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current and let me slip away

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

this one is for my sayang...

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 12:22:06 GMT

Oh love, hang on,
I�ve gotta say this right
'Cause I only get one shot,
Once in my life
'Cause I want to grow old with you
And I want you to hold me forever

Do you think that you love me?
'Cause I do, I do, I do
Do you want that forever?
'Cause I do, I do, I do
Do you want me to share your life with you?
I do, I do, I do

Oh love, hang on,
If you're willing,
I�ll be strong
And I�ll give you the life that you deserve
'Cause I want you to know all of me
And I, I want to hold you forever

Do you think that you love me?
'Cause I do, I do, I do
Do you want that forever?
'Cause I do, I do, I do
Do you want me to brave this world for you?
I do, I do, I do
I do, I do, I do, I do

shirts & gloves...

Mon, 31 May 2004 22:40:00 GMT

When I'm back from the road and you're out on it
and I'm tired of this distance and I believe it's over-rated.
And this phone tag game is endless, the novelty is wearing
I'm hoping time will pass without any assistance or convincing.

Road rules apply, there's so much action, you're getting busy.
I'll call your cellular phone to tell you TV night was lonely without you and so am I...
so am I.
It seems our day keeps falling on a leap year.

So many high points on this last leg.
I can't wait to recount them
it seems like nothing's happened until I've shared them with you.
The note that you had called says youre half a day away and you are heading home just in time for me to leave.

Road rules apply, there's so much action, I'm getting busy.
So make sure that I'm up to date on TV night,
I hate to miss out.
I think I miss you most on Wednesdays & Saturdays.
It seems our day keeps falling on a leap year.

first, current & last...

Fri, 28 May 2004 02:37:34 GMT

**FIRST**
First best friend: Mohd Hafiz Bin Abu Bakar, circa 1997-1999
First date: when i was in form 2, can't really remember where we went to
First break-up: somewhere in 1999, when i was in form 4 and which is for good =)
First self purchased album: KRU - "Awas!" satisfied?
First funeral: standard 6
First pets: i think it was a cat
First piercing/tattoo: i have none
First enemy: i don't think so

**CURRENT**
Current best friend: my girl =)
Current status: in a relationship, oh sorry i'm actually "married"
Current song playing: Taking Back Sunday - "Bonus Mosh Pit (Part II)"
Current thoughts: what? it's only 10 am? why did i wake up so early? when are YOU gonna come back?
Current emotions: bored
Current status online: oh shit i forgot to switch on my MSN messanger
Current wonder: how is she doing?
Current instrument played: guitars
Current need: her very badly =( and the new Taking Back Sunday album

**LAST**
Last cigarette: around 2 minutes ago
Last kiss: saturday, 22nd may 2004
Last good cry: hm...what should i put here?
Last movie seen: Troy (which is a very very very good movie)
Last beverage drank: teh o
Last food consumed: kuey tiau goreng, SS15 last night
Last crush: not gonna write it down
Last phone call: my girl, 3:30 am
Last tv show watched: i can't remember
Last time showered: 12 hours ago
Last shoes worn: my black & white adidas
Last item bought: cigarettes
Last annoyance: my nose!
Last disappointment: someone bought Bad Religion's - "Generator"
Last ice cream eaten: does McFlurry Oreo counts? ok it was on saturday, 22nd May 2004...with my girl
Last time wanting to die: let me think...
Last shirt worn: my NoFx shirt
Last website visited: my own website

so here it is...

Tue, 25 May 2004 17:32:32 GMT

currently listening to: Taking Back Sunday - "A Decade Under The Influence"

hello there...ok let this be my official blog. just ignore what i wrote the other day, i won't delete it because i want to make this page kinda full. haha. i'm on 2 weeks holiday, just finished my short semester. seriously, this is the worst holiday i've ever had. i am bored, i have no money at all, my girl is not around, i got nowhere to go and life just sucked so bad. anyway, thank god for internet: i have something to do to waste my life away. oh yeah, i found 2 songs off the new Taking Back Sunday album which will be out next month. shit they are still good! can't hardly wait for the whole album. it will surely be a blast. well, i have nothing to write anymore. face it, i'm a bad writer, a really bad one. i'll update this page later cuz i need to take new photos of myself and upload it here. signing off...

fuck me because i'm lame

Mon, 24 May 2004 12:58:53 GMT

shit i don't know how to use this...anyway, i think the template for the background is so emo! hahah i'm out!